So, I had a cheesy moment with my little dude….and I loved it!!!
It’s been snowing like a bitch for the past few days. And since I’m a jobless statistic, I’ve actually enjoyed the snow because I’m not commuting in it.
I wake the kids up saying, “look out the window.”
I shovel it. I slip on it and bust my damn back wide open. I feel manly about it because I can control whether I allow it to rest on my sidewalks or not. And I’m humbled by Mother Nature’s ability to manhandle me despite my repetitive verbal abuse.
Then it hits me….I should totally build one kick-ass snow fort that will be a three month project with the kids.
It’ll melt some. Turn to ice some. Take some bad-ass snowball fighting hits some. But we’ll keep rebuilding, patching, working on it and making sure come spring, it’s still standing during the big-thaw!
And so I did it. And it’s something I should have BEEN doing. But I haven’t.
And, I’m not beating myself up for it. I’m chalking it up to another amazing experience in my time as a stay-at-home jobless-statistic dad.
Then it hits me…I should have been building one kick-ass fort of confidence around myself over the past month. And I should have had a three-month maintenance plan around it. And I haven’t.
I melted some. Took some vicious snowball hits. I cried. I looked in the mirror and walked away in disgust. And at the end of the day, all I'd really done is waste time.
And I wasn’t rebuilding, patching, or working on shit. NOTHING. No-thing.
Thanks ex-boss, for giving me another amazing moment with my kids I otherwise would have missed.
Thanks ex-boss for making me realize another strength I hold within myself that’s now unleashed.
Thanks ex-boss for stopping my life at what I’ll hold as the most current critical moment in my self-awareness.
Thanks ex-boss…..but don’t get cocky you bastard…
I had an amazing phone call yesterday with a job I have a 99% chance of getting. It’s the best Christmas gift I could have gotten. I felt like I’d dropped 300 lbs. I got a piece of ME back. And, there’s still one more very strong potential job out there that I won’t hear about until January.
Nothing’s in stone and it could all crumble. But for now I feel lucky. Fuck that…I feel overwhelmingly fortunate. Only time will tell how it all plays out.
But yesterday was a good day.